i knew it.. knew it it's going to be a sad day after my mom is home.. i knew she's going to miss her grandson.. as i expected and dont want it to happen on her all this while.. she is now doing what? weeping in the room, no doubt. what can i do? confront her? no, dont think that would be the best way.. what i did? i left her alone in the room, and i am now, sitting in front of the screen here, typing this.. letting her alone for a while might be good for her, sometimes when people are sad, cry out will not be a bad matter anyway..i really hope, someone would understand how i feel, what i think and what im doing.. what im doing for everyone.. its not that i want to brag of what im doing or anything, like mom has always told me, dont keep in heart, must tell what problems im having.. at least people can understand you more.. im just trying to let people understand.. understand the situation we're in and having now.. like what i said in the previous post, letting nephew back for a month and back to KL for few months wasnt that bad.. it is, rather a good idea.. at least mom will not keep on thinking of adam everyday, every moment, every single minute.. i can see, mom's been thinking of adam since the day she step her feet on kuching international airport.. if the plan will not go on, i'd rather sacrifice more.. mom said, "if you ask me to stay at KL for a long term now, i will go.. i dont want to stay back at kuching here, seems like a maid to you all.. at KL, im relax, dont need to do anything.. life goes easier there.." the moment i heard what she said to me, i straightly say without further thought, "if so, you move to KL bah.." if you're asking me, am i real? yes, im saying real.. i mean what i've said.. even thought without mom around us is hard, but, if she move to KL would be happier, i'd rather let her go.. i dont want to tie her around us.. i want to let her do what she want.. when we want to see her, we can fly to KL at anytime whenever we're free.. we're mature enough to take care of ourselves.. just that, dont mess the house can? help clean.. maybe she thought im just fooling around with her when i said that.. but no! i'm serious.. but now, i dont know how to tell her that i'm really serious bout it.. what more to say, i've another sis, she might object my plan.. i dont know what im supposed to do.. please someone, tell me how to walk through this path.. i'm tired.. i couldnt concentrate on my study seeing her like that.. please, God, light up my path..