ahh.. i'm a failure... in what? education lorh.. seems to failed everything.. aihss x.x -dead- same thing again teacher told me..
"you can do it one.. if you really work hard.. i believe you can score an A for my subject if you really do so.."
this phrase, dont know how many times i heard it from teacher.. i know.. i know teacher is trying to encourage me.. and i did work harder.. but.. it was so last minute.. sorryy.. i couldnt help myself to study so early.. it was my bad.. as i look at the book, its just like there's a lil devil behind me saying.. "aiyah.. dont worry larh.. study next day lorh.." and i would just close my book and come here.. but i was.. feeling so guilty.. but, guilty also no use if i dont make good use of it right? i know teacher sure is very disappointed with me.. she seems to keep encouraging me to work harder for her subject.. keep putting hopes on me.. and i feel bad for disappointing her..
i did try.. try to study her subject.. but i just couldnt absorb what i've read.. whenever i turn to that book, there's an image of her keep telling me to STUDY 8 HOURS A DAY!!! then.. i feel like giving up on that subject..
well.. i deserve this kind of result.. i didnt study hardly for this subject.. frankly, i feel a lil sad over it.. but what to do.. its a past.. we canot move back nemore.. time wouldnt wait for us..

the nex thing was, another teacher told us.. if we start to study smart, at least 5 hours a day.. we can make it through till STPM. her word really encourages me.. at least 5 hours not that bad right? i can anytime study 2 and the half hours in the noon, then oonline for a while, take it as a rest, then continue the remaining 2 and the half hours at 8. then i can sleep consistently every night at 1030pm. then i'll have a good rest and sleep already. and she told us too.. that to success, we need 3 things to keep in our mind..
1. ambition
2. pro-active
3. time management

ambition.. i have ambition.. my ambition is to be a IT engineer, just like my bro. i may consider graphic designing too.. since im so into photoshop thing.. and i like to edit alot of things.. as long as there's anything got to do with computer.. i just LOVE computer.. i cant live without my computer.. its just like certain people who cant live without handphone.. =) well, that's my ambition.. but is there anything got to do with what im studying in school right now? what i'm studying is physics, chemistry, pure math, general knowledge, and muet. no doubt that pure math and muet is very important for a person, no matter what they're going to continue on after STPM. but are physics and chemistry helping me in my ambition? i don't think so.. to be honest, i feel a lil regret going form 6.. seriously.. but i'm glad too, that i've met my friends =) i love physics, but not chemistry. it's kinda torturing.. but no matter what it is, i'll work harder than this term, harder and harder, so that i can get a "colourful" STPM cert.. =P

pro-active.. i have a lil i guess? i still remember me keep asking my math teacher question as soon as she step into the class. i now still got ask larh, but not that often already.. cos there's too much to do, to study, till i'm abit left out from what she taught.. anyway, i'll work hard to chase after the time and let them expect the unexpected from me!

time management. thats my biggest problem. i tend to delay my homeworks, delay my time for study.. delay here, delay there.. but one thing i never will delay is that, to use my computer =) what to do, i just love computer.. xD well, i'll try.. and seriously will try.. to minimise my time for computer and maximise it for study! i cant afford to fail anymore.. i need a GOOD TIMETABLE!! hope im not just singing around here.. =p

actually.. my ambition since younger time.. i wanted to be a pro hacker.. that's why sometimes i did went to certain website that teaches people how to hack.. of course i dont hack people's privacy larh.. i made my first move from game.. i went to learn how to hack in game.. but only 40% success.. not successful yet.. there's some boundaries though.. i scared while im learning how to hack, im the one to be hacked.. and my computer might die off, and the next thing you'll be seeing is me lying on the sofa just like a zombie hunger for blood.. but i know i cannot be a hacker.. cos its ILLEGAL!!!! i might be a pro hacker... but every year chinese new year you'll be seeing me eat curry rice in the jail.. haha.. but if i think positively, i can help the government to hack some criminal's computer to get their proof of guilt lerh.. xD nahh.. who wants to help the government.. if i were to be a hacker.. i wouldnt want to help malaysia nemore.. i might just help the opposition party to hack into government's department and get their proof of bribe! HOHOHO!!!