HAPPY HARI GAWAI

dont know what title should i put for this post, so just put accordingly to the date, gawai day. happy hari gawai to my fellow friends who are celebrating it.. actually, i dont feel like posting up any post today, but im just too bored, just wanted to write something here.. so, here i am..

well, come to think of it.. two years ago i did, started to try blogging. but after several posts for about 8 to 9, i quit. there's a few reason though.. the reason was that i cant online for 3 mths during my NS period.. then i was quite lazy in blogging that time too. but the main reason i quitted that time was cos i thought if i blog everything, about my life, what i did, what i said, everything.. those who read my blog will know, people will know.. and they might start to see me in another way.. i used to keep things to myself, no doubt im still now.. and not letting anyone know.. if i blog, people wil know, obviously.. another reason is that, if i just post anything i like in my blog, after people read, they might got angry, frust, jealous, and all kinds of emotions- you name it.. and thats what i dont want.

now i am wondering, that should i stop blogging? well, i started to blog this year, january. at first, i blog cos i was frust with something and i dont know whom should i express it to. and thats when my friend told me that, blogging can be fun and helpful with stress, emotions and so on. soon after that, yea, i found that its true. as you all can see in my previous posts, i did laugh and happy for what i did and post it up. since im a person who dont write diary, this blog can be helpful if one day i happen to lost memory or what.

but now, not even exactly half a year since i blog, a lot of things happened. things that i dont want, dont wish to happen, all happened. people got the info on what me and my friends did, and i dont know what went wrong. i dont know what people want from me, and it seems that being afk, busy, away and so on is a wrong thing to do. i mean, people do have right to do what they want, for example like what i had said earlier.. since people will have the addiction of chatting, gaming, reading or what, i bet they should have the tendency of dont feel like it, right? correct me if im wrong, but i do feel so.. cos for me i think, i do things according to mood. i can chat the whole day long just because i feel like it, and vice versa. same thing for study. so its just one thing that i can say here, mood. sometimes when people are not in the mood to do something, friends around it should understand, and leave him/her alone, i guess? thats what a true friend should be, in my opinion. but if that people happen to be doing other thing and suddenly got list of scoldings, emoing phrases, and those kinds of angry emoticons, all the dots when he/she came back.. if you were he/she, what would you do and think?

and please, dont because of my post, readers got angry or what. i blog what i think only, and of course, no offence to anyone. if i've upset any of my readers because of my post, im sorry. i say sorry doesnt mean that i admit im wrong in writting what i wrote, cos i believe, what i wrote is my freedom, my life, what i've gone through, what my thoughts. i say sorry is because that i feel sorry for wasting your time to read my blog and got emotionally affected. i'm sorry..