MY DREAM

actually i am very very very sleepy right now, but i just want to write this post as fast as possible because there's one weird dream i dreamt about last night, and i just want to jolt it down so that i wont forget it next time. hope i wont be so loso in this post.

apparently i dreamt about my dad, mom and me of course. surprisingly in the dream, my dad was still alive, living with us, in the new house here. that's the first weird thing. then while the three of us where talking in the bedroom, (which was actually my bedroom in fact) there's one stalker outside our house, keep peeping in our house through my bed's window. when i found out about it, i shouted that there's someone looking at me scarily. then same thing goes for the kitchen. i went to the kitchen and that guy still stalks me. i couldnt see that guy's face, but he just have that bad aura. and my dad chase out from the kitchen, and that stalker got away. somehow i can see that my dad is very angry with that stalker, as if he would kill him. my mom and dad didnt talk at all, kind of a silent dream. only me and the stalker talk in the end.

the next thing was that stalker came again, and this time, the three of us rush out to chase after the stalker. i was holding a double layer green umbrella with me, where the second smaller layer part of the umbrella was light green in colour i think. kinda forgot the colour already. anyway, we somehow ride on a flying stuff, forgot what stuff, and that stalker too, can fly. and as we reach near him in the middle of the air, we fighted. at first was hand fight, slap here punch here like that. but somehow i kinda hate that stalker very much, and i stabbed him through his throat with my umbrella. and, since it's through, his neck behind got a big hole, as big as the umbrella's size. then, the moment i see that stalker barely can speak, i feel very guilty, scared and got the feeling of losing something or someone important. then he kinda like dont have anymore energy to float in the air, so he fell to the ground. my dad and mom were just like staring at him, while me tried to talk to him while he was like panting and craving for oxygen to breathe.

i kneel down near beside him while having my hand supporting his head, i asked,
"who are you? why you keep stalking us?" (something like that la, can't really remember the exact thing i asked)
"i... am... yo.... ur... father..."
my heart sank.. that time in the dream i was totally blank. he said he is my father, and who is the one standing next to me? the one standing next to me look exactly how my dad look in real? and the dying stalker's look is very different from my dad's look? then he continued and said,
"i am... your.. biological... father..."
i was thinking, wth? is he serious? then after hearing what the stalker said, my dad looks kinda like gloomy or angry walk in the house without a word. my mom followed i think. the funny thing is that, hey.. i killed people.. why are they still so calm about it? and the person i killed he claimed to be my father? not long after that, that stalker took his last breath as died. i think i did cry in the dream. cant really remember. the next thing was that i called the police. and since there's a police station just outside our neighbourhood, the police arrived very fast. they took away the dead body i think. then the police collected all our clothes to examine for killing proves? funny right? then we had to worry what we're going to wear the next day.

after that, the police left and i just woke up like in shock. i dont know why i can have such a dream, with me killing people? and i can still see the hole that i stabbed through? its very very very disgusting and of course, horror! you could imagine what face i see when a person is stabbed through his throat. so, that's all i remember about the dream. it's a very scary dream for me. it's a nightmare! i dont know why.. there's also a few times i dreamt about either me killing people, or i saw people killing other people, or people got killed, or people kill me, or even, people died with whole body covered with blood next to my car. and my car is white in colour, so you could imagine how scary is it for a while car to like have human's blood on it.

so i went to this www.dreammoods.com to check for the dream's definition, not to say im supersitious or what, i just want to know the meaning. cos as i know, sometimes we dream about what our inner heart thinks, and what we hide for long. and this is the definition..

[Killing
To dream that you kill someone, indicates that heavy stress may cause you to lose your temper and self-control. Consider the person you have killed and ask yourself if you feel any rage towards him or her in your waking life. Your dream may be expressing some hidden anger. Alternatively, you may be trying to kill or put an end to an aspect of yourself that is represented by the person killed. Identify the characteristics of this person and ask yourself how you do not want to be like him or her.

To dream that you have been killed, suggests that your actions are disconnected from your emotions and conscience. Alternatively, the dream refers to drastic changes that are happening in your life. There is a characteristic that you want to get rid of or a habit that you want to end within yourself. Killing represents the killing off of old parts of yourself and old habits.]

so.. is it because i too stress or what? i not so sure too.. somehow last night i had problems to sleep even though i was very tired.. i couldnt breathe properly.. as if there's one big stone is giving a big pressure on my chest that i barely can breathe? i need to keep taking big and deep breathe to feel better.. and my heart beats very fast.. weird? i think so too.. well, that's all for me dream, and the definition.. i'm off to sleep now.. lucky i type fast enough.. the things that went on today will update tomorrow, to be combine with tomorrow's activies.. =) good night..